My life up to this point has been more than i could of ever asked for. I have a great family with parents who never divorced and 2 brother who couldn’t be beat. My grandpa on both sides are amazing people, as well as all of my cousins, aunths, uncles. Growing up in north java a.k.a bekasi. Studied in Depok. And trapped in Jakarta. Everything were fine….at least to me it seems that way.
Now i’m almost 25 and so many things have changed. Now….i realize that every time you see somebody, it could be the last. You will always worry about loosing someone, failed, stress, and die.
Now….I’m in a stage of my life when i dont know if trying to “become a man”, the way “i’ve chosen to try is correct” or if ”how i am going about it is very selfish”
It seems the logical choice is to do what is most important to you, that makes you most happy. But being a single, who is just starting a career and personally feels like he has grown 10 fold since going out on his own….and makes choosing the other way a very scary choice.
I really can’t complain though. I’ve had such a blessed life, surrounded by great family and friends, and i am very fortunate to be able to make these decisions. I just wish everything was more clear. Hopefully in time, the picture will clear up and i will be lead in the right direction.
/*gue lagi kerasukan jin bule.